I saw her first time on the green bridge. It was a lovely summer evening around 7pm, a sunset was above to happen, and a cool breeze was blowing. A perfect romantic weather. I always called it as a green bridge instead of freedom bridge. That day it was different, I felt it is worth to call it as a ‘freedom bridge’. Freedom from worries, freedom form responsibilities, freedom from duties, and freedom from time. Wow! What a day it was.
Budapest has many blessing from God, green bridge is one of them. This is how I look at Budapest. Whoever goes there they find relaxed, laugh, satisfaction of getting something. It’s a bridge for all kind of people, youngsters, older people, bikers, runners, philosophers, and artists too. In fact, I would say it’s a ‘magic bridge’. It’s a bridge between you to your imaginary world hidden within you.
As usual, I was sitting on the bridge enjoying the cool breeze and view of Citadella.
I was almost free from the worldly things and I was in my own world. A moment my bike which tied to the fence of bridge got disturbed. Another bike trying to park beside my bike. It was light blue city bike with white color basket in front of it. This is where I saw her first time. She was adjusting her front hairs behind her ears. She had a little smile on her face. That moment I felt everything around me got freeze. What a beautiful time it was. It was a photo click in my mind. All sudden my heart stopped for a moment. Only remained was that snapshot which looks like permanently stored in my mind.
She was simple no makeup, no lipstick! Wearing a creamy color t-shirt, a small white dialed watch, and light blue jeans with white shoes. Greyish hair little longer than usual, baby eyes deep enough to swallow the whole world.
Simple yet so beautiful.
She parked her bike just beside my bike. It was my crazy mind or heart don’t know but started dreaming without any reason. I felt so good that her bike was beside my bike. I started finding God’s intention behind it. I think, I was expecting some miracle going to happen that evening. She continued, stood beside the fence resting her hands on the fence started looking towards Citadella. Always she had a smile on her face. Without losing a second, I was looking at her. I wanted to experience every moment of that beautiful evening. Who know it might be the last day of my life!
Almost 15min passed, she was standing alone with her smile.
Sometime looking towards Citadella, sometimes towards castle. My heart was observing her every eyes moment. From nowhere, Norah Jones took control on my hearing. It was so satisfying. My crazy heart started taking me to a different direction. It started suggesting me to go and say ‘Hi’ to her. Believe me it was 3rd world war begins in within me. May be between my heart and my mind. For me its not difficult to initiate a talk with strangers, Afterall I am a Sagittarius. But this time I lost my confidence, my proud, my capabilities even strength in my legs. My heart was started beating fast, but I was smiling too! What a crazy experience it was. I really thought of go talk with her and tell her how beautiful she is, tell her that she made my day rather my few days. My brain was instructing my legs to proceed but could not able to do it. I amazed, how efficient our brains are, it has capability to process 100’s of thoughts within a second. It can change the world within a blink of eyes.
Almost 20min over in this battle. She looked at her watch, again, she put her hair back of her ears. I liked her whenever she did it. I cannot express this in words. I was in my own just born romantic world. Exactly that moment someone tapped her shoulder! She turned around and smiled at HIM. This time her smile was bigger. She hugged him tightly.
Everything stopped within me again. My brain was not able to understand what’s going on there, a total blank. Look like my heart did not accept that ugly time. I want to rewind it back, just rewind back and change it. My heart started beating fast but this time my smile vanished. I could not digest that moment. All sudden everything changed. Nora jones replaced by tram and cars noise. Started hearing peoples talks around me. The breeze become colder and windy. There was no sunset, it was just angry sky. The bikes which are parked next to each other has no meaning. There was not any God’s intention. My heart become heavier and heavier.
It was all mind game. I never told my heart to fall in love with her. It was my imagination, my thinking, my uncontrolled mind! But still I blame the mind. It showed me a world which was just a bubble in water, I started believing it. A moment I was in sky, next moment I was nowhere. I started cursing the God. It was a bitter experience to my heart, everything was irritating. I think I cursed whole world, in fact everything on the earth.
10min passed, both were standing and talking, smiling and they were deeply involved in each other.
The surrounding worldly things were not bothering them. I thought of going out from that place. But, I could not. Looks like my heart was taking me to another world, the ‘acceptance world’. Its quite difficult for me whether it’s my mind or heart or my knowledge or experience or awareness, I say its my heart. I look at the boy once, he was handsome, cool, perfectly dressed up & had a real meaningful smile on his face. His smile, eyes and his presence were so deeply involved in her. I start feeling that HE is perfect for her. He is meant for her. What a lovely couple they were!
I surprised of myself and my thinking. Few minutes back I was in romantic world, latter in an irritation world and now a real beautiful world. What a big happiness is hidden inside us when we started accepting the things as it is. My heart started beating normally but my smile on my face returned. Somewhere from the corner within me, a blessing came out. I felt my heart is big and started appreciating it.
Thanked to God for everything. Thanked God for creating a perfect match for her. I hold my hands together to my chest and prayed to Danube to bless them a beautiful life ahead.
Source: Jagannath Pattar